Lost in the Politics of the Real World

I’m bitter. Yeah, I’m cold. I’m not anywhere near being happy. Who wouldn’t be bitter if you had all the stupidest and weirdest and I-don’t-know-how-I-would-describe-them-anymore things happening to you? There must be some curse that’s been cast upon me some time in the past. I don’t know. I don’t frigging know. I didn’t do anything unethical or bad or evil to anyone. I don’t deserve this kind of treatment. Ask anyone. I could be really tough sometimes, but please, save my weakest point. If I’m generally nice to you aside from my super nasty and uneven mood swings, be nice to me, okay? Why the friggin’ hell would I treat you that way if you’re doing otherwise?

Holy shit. Purvis thought I’m ready to be promoted to the national youth pool. Take note, it’s Purvis. Fucking Purvis! And how dare you not listen to his suggestions? You’re such a crappy coach. I haven’t learned a damned thing from you since I started training. And you dare take a professional’s opinion for granted? How thick could you get? God, don’t tell me the world’s coming to an end now.

Ah, I’m starting to feel the power of politics. And I can’t take it any longer. I’m better than most of those dim-witted youth players you’re bragging about. Duh, I can beat them any time for crying out loud! Oh, and you’re not an exception. I can beat you any time I wish. You’ve really got to have the balls to do such a heinous thing. I hate you, you fucking asshole.

Wokie. Ranting’s over, guys.

Other than that situation, I think I’m getting better at comprehending things that happen in the real world. The real world is totally like school. There are some people you have to connect yourself to just to have an edge. There are some things you can’t do while they’re watching. There are some thoughts you want to be heard which will never come out of your mouth. It sucks. And yeah, after this, I’m sure there still is an awful lot of cool stuff waiting for me. I see them coming. This cool-stuff-chain is never gonna break.

I hope.