Luckstruck

"You know what, I envy you. You seem to enjoy your life so much. I wish I were you."

I was with my ex yesterday. Just visited her, you know, the common comeback bonding. She said she can't go to school this coming term because she's financially incapable of doing that. She's gonna have to work at a call center for at least one term to be able to save up for her tuition fee in the fairly near future. She totally thought it was really cool to be me, have everything I do have, and feel just what it's like. I was feeling really bad to hear she can't afford UP tuition fee, which, aside from PUP, is the cheapest. Everything I have, my lifestyle, my spending/shopping habits, even my perfume, was taken note of. With every word she said, I was hurting. I just didn't wanna show it because I was supposed to be the one being supportive to her. I didn't wanna let her know that I can't manage to be in that situation. That would be so like hell. I just pretended I was the strong one, and can take over just about anything. I told her not to feel awful about it, and that it's her parents' fault, not hers.

Then, I came to know that two other friends of mine are also gonna stop going to school for a while - for exactly the same reason. Ugh, this is so not good. It just means we're all not graduating on time.

Then it struck me. Amidst all those ordeals, minor and major alike, that I have dealt with, I'm still lucky to have enough for each passing day. I'm still lucky to have enough to eat at least three square meals a day, go to school, buy whatever I wanna buy, do whatever I wanna do. I'm still lucky I have mum and dad and my entire family behind me.

I'm so lucky. I'm so happy to be me.

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I'm posting my grades for people to see. Have a good laugh, everyone!

Radio 2.0
Speech 1.75
Portuguese 3.0
Comm. Theories 2.75
Logic INC
Bio/Geo INC
Journalism 5.0 (So frustrating. He kicked me out of his class because of too many absences.)