OCD

I just realized my old friend OCD is kicking again. Yep, I have OCD. I count when I walk, I keep all my stuff in a freakishly certain way, I wash my hands all the time, the works. Been like this on and off since childhood. Oh, but I had a normal childhood if you might ask. Never sexually harassed or anything. OCD from childhood sexual harassment? I don't think so. Been having compulsions for the past month, due to serious stress. No, you don't know what I mean serious stress. Only UPD Broadcast Comm. majors understand what it really means. Here's an overview by the way, thanks to MentalHealth

Diagnostic Criteria

1. Either obsessions or compulsions:

Obsessions as defined by (1), (2), (3), and (4):
1. recurrent and persistent thoughts, impulses, or images that are experienced, at some time during the disturbance, as intrusive and inappropriate and that cause marked anxiety or distress
2. the thoughts, impulses, or images are not simply excessive worries about real-life problems
3. the person attempts to ignore or suppress such thoughts, impulses, or images, or to neutralize them with some other thought or action
4. the person recognizes that the obsessional thoughts, impulses, or images are a product of his or her own mind (not imposed from without as in thought insertion)

Compulsions as defined by (1) and (2):
1. repetitive behaviors (e.g., hand washing, ordering, checking) or mental acts (e.g., praying, counting, repeating words silently) that the person feels driven to perform in response to an obsession, or according to rules that must be applied rigidly
2. the behaviors or mental acts are aimed at preventing or reducing distress or preventing some dreaded event or situation; however, these behaviors or mental acts either are not connected in a realistic way with what they are designed to neutralize or prevent or are clearly excessive
2. At some point during the course of the disorder, the person has recognized that the obsessions or compulsions are excessive or unreasonable. Note: This does not apply to children.
3. The obsessions or compulsions cause marked distress, are time consuming (take more than 1 hour a day), or significantly interfere with the person's normal routine, occupational (or academic) functioning, or usual social activities or relationships.
4. If another Axis I disorder is present, the content of the obsessions or compulsions is not restricted to it (e.g., preoccupation with food in the presence of an Eating Disorder; hair pulling in the presence of Trichotillomania; concern with appearance in the presence of Body Dysmorphic Disorder; preoccupation with drugs in the presence of a Substance Use Disorder; preoccupation with having a serious illness in the presence of Hypochondriasis; preoccupation with sexual urges or fantasies in the presence of a Paraphilia; or guilty ruminations in the presence of Major Depressive Disorder).
5. The disturbance is not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., a drug of abuse, a medication) or a general medical condition.

CREDITS

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, American Description, Diagnostic Criteria. Online URL: http://www.mentalhealth.com/dis1/p21-an05.html

(or something to that effect. Took this in formal writing class three years back, my memory about it is kind of fogged at the moment, thanks to my acads)

Spend My Life

This goes out to a girl who can never be mine. *lovestruck*

I never knew such a day could come
And I never knew such a love
Could be inside of one

And I never knew what my life was for
But now that you're here I know for sure

I never knew till I looked in your eyes
I was incomplete till the day you walked into my life
And I never knew that my heart could feel
So precious and pure
One love so real

Can I just see you every morning when
I open my eyes
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me
Every night
Can we just feel this way together
Till the end of all time
Can I just spend my life with you

Now baby the days and the weeks
And the years will roll by
But nothing will change the love inside
Of you and I

And baby I'll never find any words
That could explain
Just how much my heart my life
My soul you've changed

Can you run to these open arms
When no one else understands
Can we tell God and the whole world
I'm your woman, and you're my man
Can't you just feel how much I love you
With one touch of my hand
Can I just spend my life with you

No touch has ever felt so wonderful
(You are incredible)
And a deeper love I've never known
(I'll never let you go)
I swear this love is true
(Now and forever to youto you)
Can I just see you every morning when

I open my eyes
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me
Every night
Can we just feel this way together
Till the end of all time
Can I just spend my life with you
Can you run to these open arms

When no one else understands
Can we tell God and the whole world
You're my woman, and you're my man
Can't you just feel how much I love you
With one touch of my hand
Can I just spend my life with you

Can I just spend my life with you
Can I just spend my life with you
(Forever here with you)
Can I just spend my life with you
Can I just see you every morning when I
Open my eyes

Happy Valentine's Day!

Do people give gifts on Valentine's Day? I want another Buddha, then! Ü Make that two Buddhas in different poses. LOL.

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I'm going out on a date with an ex tomorrow. Just for sake of not feeling left out. You think that's weird?

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A dollar is waiting for you at ph.samsungmobile.com Donate it. Do some charity work and store some good karma.

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Ala, let's try to meet up again when you're free. :-)

This is True 2

THIS is TRUE for 30 January 2005 Copyright www.thisistrue.com
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INSTITUTIONALIZED BULLYING: Two students at Wyomina Park Elementary
School in Ocala, Fla., were caught doodling in class. The 9- and 10-
year-old boys had drawn stick figures purportedly showing a classmate
being hanged, with other stick figures "holding knives pointed through"
his body. The teacher called in the school's dean, who called in the
police, who called in the State Attorney's Office for consultation. The
boys were arrested, handcuffed and charged with "making a written
threat to kill or harm another person," a felony. The mother of the 9-
year-old says her son was upset at the boy supposedly in the drawing
since that boy had been pushing and shoving him at school. She said her
son, a special education student, would not be able to associate the
drawing with actual physical violence. (Ocala Star-Banner) ...With him
in jail, then, the bullying is complete.

INSTITUTIONAL BULLY II: School officials in Chicago, Ill., say a teacher
at Morgan Park School taped shut the mouths and eyes of several second-
grade students who were disrupting her class. She gave students a
warning first, though: "Sit your ass down!" No charges have been filed,
but the school district has started procedures to fire the unnamed
teacher. (Chicago Sun-Times) ...Portrait of American Justice: Assault
children, no charges. Draw a picture of a bully: felony charges.

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I finally got a date on the 14th! Either on the 14th or the 15th, whenever she's available. Don't ask. She's my ex. I'm dating her just for the heck of Valentine's Day. As much as I don't care about what people say about me, I don't wanna be left out. No one does, actually. Do you?

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The New Year is just around the corner and I haven't even started shopping, or writing my shopping list, at least. Ack, this is gonna be hectic, tedious, toxic, horrific, etc. But it's gonna be fun.

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And speaking of new year, it's time to perk up and accessorize! I'm helping my mom sell these nice Chinese charms. These things range from cell phone hangings (I think that's what you call them, uh huh), hand bag amulets (that's what you make sabit to any part of your bag) to crystal bracelets, necklaces, and home decor. Just buzz me up if you want anything to do with them. Ü

My Favorite TV Commercials

Unlike Ala's TV ads bashing post on December 16th of last year (just look it up, it's somewhere on the page), I'm doing a post on my favorite TV ads. Bow. Bow Wow. Jojo and Bow Wow. Baby It's You. What am I doing? Back to the topic.

1.) That KFC commercial that's sort of like a music video. That one where everything turns into smile. It makes me feel real good - like everything around is could be a trigger to smile. That's just me. What do you people think?

2.) That Fibrosine commercial with all Zen effects. That's just invigorating.

3.) That Chowking commercial before that showed a girl walking in the rain under an umbrella. I don't think the ad makes any sense at all with all the sentimental moments with the guy from the car running towards her, but she's really really pretty. That's what made me love the ad.

4.) That new Close Up Happy Valentine's Day commercial. It's yet another feel-good commercial, but it works. I love feel-good stuff.

That's it. Of all the commercials being shown on national TV every after 2 minutes of a show or series, I only liked four of them. But that doesn't mean I have limited memory. Of course I remember a lot of these TV ads. But then, with the quality of these things being shown to consumers who advertising agencies think are stupid in the average, what's to like about 'em?

Bow. Bow Wow. Bow Wow and Jojo. Baby It's You. You get it now? I'm crazy. Ü